3 by Laura K.

Buried

the breeze

so chilly

a dark

glooming perception

crawling and inching

its way

inside me

made me feel

secluded

yet mystic

it’s a

secret planted

in a

capsule

from long ago

what a desire

in me

that

wonders why

so

secluded and private

 

Mirrored

one secluded day

I met a young

girl

her eyes

seemed

so faraway

it was like

looking

in a mirror

which was

foggy

yet

so wise

 

First Love

my eyes met yours

they couldn’t escape

I knew you had

me from the start

you were one in a

million like no other

everytime we were

alone

it was like the

first

the twinkle in

your eyes

told me

stories

I held your

hand

I fit right in

I thought you

felt it too

where’d it go?

why did it end?

 

 

 

Three by Laura Konnight

December

I start to quiver, but at the

same time I feel as though

I’m having one’s cross to bear.

As when I look at myself,

I start to see change, but this

change that I see is pain, pain

turning my stomach upside down.

Now, I tell myself this pain has

got to be a disease, ’cause it sure

can’t be a punishment —

It feels

as though it’s cutting me raw

to the bone at times.

It is as though the pain is here, but

yet so invisible, with all these rough

edges.

And now, I’m feeling my pain is

getting hotter to where I’m boiling

to the point that my skin is peeling

right off my bones.

How much deeper and more

painful does my pain need to get?

 

 

Words

Words are so powerful

to where they hurt a soul.

Words are so powerful

to where you feel like you

died inside.

Words are so powerful

to where you feel your

heart was sliced in half.

Words are so powerful

to where the words

shut you down in isolation.

Words are so powerful

to where it gets to the point

of SUICIDE.

 

One Word

It all started one day by a

twist of one word.

My heart got all tangled to where

it felt strangled.

Then by the pull of a string I

began to become hurt.

Just like strings on an instrument

as the cords snapped in two.

So how do I begin to form

my heart to a whole

while it breaks just like a

twig in two?

 

 

 

Three by Tacarra Taylor

Black Man

Look at me, I say

I’m black and I’m beautiful

My eyes belie my pain

Riches after my pilgrimage

I hope to claim

I hope to escape the sale of myself and my

brothers and sisters

Going to Mecca

I won’t look back

Even though the sun is burning

darkened like a fine liquor

I walk and cross rivers

ducking the white man

Sometimes in the early mornings I shiver

but I must keep going

to reach my promised land

When it is reached

my people will cry and dance

Make our faces to figures of stone

Remember the lines of our faces

the trails we embarked on

Me, in stone, tell my story

long after I’m gone.

Tacarra Taylor

 

Mount

The vessel is still

even the dog doesn’t bark —

master’s boy keep the boat calm with

an oar.

Outside, it’s not dark.

Nervous, yet, I aim for a fish,

my prey.

Like a lion who roars,

spilled blood means food.

On a canoe

charged with keeping the master safe

if I don’t catch one immediately

I’ll wait and I’ll wait.

My hat blocks the sun, the brim keeps

me cool.

Being in this lake

is much like a large pool.

Although I’ve been ordered

I like me assignment.

Feeling in control.

Even when I sweat, my eyes

don’t roll for this.

I love master

because my chores take their toll.

Tacarra Taylor

 

 

 

The Block

Sturdy and still

Hard and filled

dusty and gray

erected every day

you can mold me and shape me

I turn into all sorts of things

very shapely

I crack and I fall

some call me a wrecking ball

I am used and abused

angry people kick me

they break my limbs, I am amused

Some call me a foundation

I helped found a great nation

I am what I am, but I’m not a rock

I can me made into many things

so call me a building block

Tacarra Taylor

 

 

 

New Work from the Norfolk City Jail Project/Women’s Block

Through the Glass (after Mona Kuhn, Mirage, 2012)

 

Who is this woman I see?

Sensing her hesitation as she

covers her breast.

Thinking to herself, “Damn, I hope

I’m not compared to any of the rest.”

As she stands there vulnerable

as can be.

Only now does she begin to question

if her body is meant to be seen.

She chose to come here and give

him a try

because the other guy abused her

and made her cry.

She’s this far in with nowhere

else to go.

Thinking, “All right, with my next step

it’s time to give him a show.”

Who is this woman I see?

Looking through the glass, she

could just be me.

Becca Raye

 

 

The Pain Surrounds Me

I am consumed by my mistakes. Insanity motivates my impulsive actions. I’m trying to be strong, but all I feel is weak. Trying to consume my time with distractions. The laughter of my kids feel so very far away. Destruction of my happiness is all I see throughout the day. Disassociation of my emotions. Because it hurts too much to feel. What’s my diagnosis, again? I ask as I swallow another pill. I’m looking for something, anything to fill this void I feel so deep. Why do I feel so empty? Why can’t I be enough, the one who fulfills me? My heart sinks instantly the moment I open my eyes. Where are you, God? I scream. Can you even hear me? You say all you need from me is to fear thee. Can’t you see, though, how my heart if breaking? Can’t you feel, though, how my faith is shaken? I know I chose the path I am on. But where was your warning all along? So you provide a way out? Then why do I feel stuck? Where are you, Almighty, while I am shit out of luck? Consumed by the chaos I can’t comprehend. I feel conflicted by anger, anxiety, anguish. Confusion is my closest companion. Peace is my most distant friend. Annoyance at the ulterior motives of others and of my own self-righteousness. Lacking assurance of a future I can’t see. Just wanting to break away. Crowing to be free. My mistakes and desires play over again in my mind. My own personal imprisonment of lost time.

Ashlee Marsh

 

A Memory to Cherish (after Max Liebermann, Bathers on the Beach at Schevingen, 1897)

It’s a beautiful day. The sky looks like an array of colors like purple, mauve, white, swirled all together to give out such a serenity and peace that will warm your heart to a sunshine smile to put away as a treasure in your heart. What I see is a private beach, children playing in the water to where you can hear the laughter of all through the moves of the waves. There is an older man built the size of a mountain holding a cane, wearing long pants, jacket, and a perfect brown hat that fits him perfectly. You see the man in the picture is a father spending as much time as possible with his two sons to know they will have memories to cherish of their time with their dad. You see you can’t see me in this picture, for I am behind them, painting this picture in my brain to share a memory of a man who loves his sons with every breath, taking in to exhale the Lord above gave him another day to make a memory to cherish in our hearts. This picture gives out courage, strength, determination, love, and most importantly if you could be there, you would see all that I see. Look past the children to see the ocean is never ending, eternity to life. Thank for you a memory to cherish, my dearest true love.

Loreen Pendergrass

 

Untitled, Zachary B.

Believe you me, I know the world ain’t the first and it isn’t the last. I know in a blink of an eye, we go from learning to walk to learning to become a memory. Our whole lifetime is only as long as it takes my father to spell his name. What am I but a forgettable moment? I know tomorrow doesn’t care how much I hurt today. The roots hold too many boys who look like me. Their names packed on sneakers and around stems.

Write to the Word – Alex Kemp – Norfolk Jail Project

Web

A web is a very interesting object because it has various avenues but end up at the same spot. The middle, the source where everything happens — sleep, sex, feast — it’s sticky, but yet it’s not. It’s only sticky to the objects — or subjects — that hadn’t spun it. It’s a danger zone, but yet it’s utopia. It’s a mystery how it always geometrically sits. Every corner is sharp. Every line is straight. It’s crazy how it reaches from one object to the next and the insect that spins the web has not one wing. I wonder how much web is in that insect. Is it unlimited? Is it limited? And how is it that the spider can walk on it without getting stuck and the other insect gets stuck waiting for its death. The spider doesn’t have to rush to get to it. It takes its time. Just goes about its day ’til it decides its ready to eat. All different kinds of other insects — big, small, skinny, fat — whatever is in that web, dinner for the spider.

Patience

Patience will, I think, help you understand. Will fill you with knowledge. Help you relax mentally. You wouldn’t have a lot of brain chatter. I have heard having a lot of patience or even some patience will have you looking young even it you’re old. Having patience will help you explore yourself deeper than the surface. You wouldn’t have a lot of mental or emotional pressure built-up anger or hatred, you’ll be able to understand not just yourself but others.

Blue

As I look down upon the green grass or the white bubbles that form after the waves crash, or the top of the heads that move about, or on the faces of the people that lay under me and my friend who brings light and heat. Or when I’m looking at the eyes when they are staring at me, when they are wishing or praying to the most high that dwells in the comforts of the self while white fluffy patches that seem to move about so gracefully certain hours of the day. Sometimes, I send little pellets of water to be more involved with the ecosystem, to cool down the Earth a tad bit. Nobody likes it when I turn gray and gloomy, but everybody reaps the benefits when I’m a pretty, light blue.

Cup

A cup is a cup regardless if there’s something in it or not. It’s like people — all sorts or colors, shapes, designs. They can be sentimental. Some have handles, some don’t. They come in plastic, ceramic, glass, copper, brass, colorful or dull. Whatever it looks like, it’s still a cup. If you use it, you can use it for liquid or holding objects. It can be a subject or an object. It’s just a cup.

Absolute

Absolute means everything. To have control. When you put an -ly behind it, the definition changes to, “That’s correct.” Or it also means, “Definitely wrong.” But one thing for sure, that word is bliss. It can also mean nothingness. Everything in the world is absolute: good or bad.

Puzzle

Different sizes, different shapes. Different colors, different designs. Once you fuse it all together it makes a picture worth putting together. Sorta like understanding nature. Understanding of people, life. Or just having knowledge of…for instance…my journey every minute. I see different shapes, sizes, different colors, different designs…scattered all over here and there trying to mentally put pieces in the right spot. But just like a puzzle, there are always pieces you can’t find. Or you get distracted and you lose interest in finishing the task at hand.

Extreme

Extreme is a test, not only to test the limits, but also to go above and beyond them. Sometimes, extreme can go left — especially when extreme goes from pushing past limits to verbal and being all dramatic about something. So extreme is not only physical, but also verbal and sometimes mental when people think to extreme about themselves or others. When the word “extreme” comes up in a conversation, people automatically think “exciting” or “crazy.” Extreme is something beyond feelings. It’s in whatever way it’s used. It comes to the subconscious as fearless, brave. Not scared. Without fear, either physical or verbal. Just fearless about anything you do or anything you say. Just extreme.

Search

High, low, up, down, here, there…all through books, newspapers, internet, closets, garages, in, out…open spaces, closed spaces. In corners, in half-circles or cul-de-sacs. Avenues, boulevards, streets, ponds, lakes, oceans. Tall grass, short grass, holes, trenches, and still have more to go. But I will not, because even just not trying to search is an infinity, an ongoing search.

 

Norfolk Bound

Fast cars, bums, crackheads, and police. The youth still play as if nothing’s wrong. Just a regular day as the empty weed bags blow. At night, gun smoke and endless sound of sirens over the night’s cries. From the glimpse of life I’ve seen, sometimes mostly wishing, hoping it was all this long dream. In this life hopefully I’ll summer down to my city’s blues.

Clifton F. Gaylord

 

Five from Dark N Loveless

A Nightmare on Elm Street

It was a summer I would never forget in the year of ’02, I was hustling packs of crack for a dude named Dean, but bad blood had got in between the tightness of the bond of friends. He needed his money, but the money I’d owe him was tied up at the moment. I was getting double back for giving my custy some slack and I tried to explain that, but in the heat of the moment he wanted to take it to the stage. So I said, if you take it blood then homeboy you paid. He acted like he wanted to make a move but I told him,  don’t disturb this groove. So I slid off to go pick up my bread, then went up to Elm Street to pick of the rest of my spread. I’m at this chick’s crib sniffin some of the finest kc. I hear voices outside the window. I look and guess what I see? It’s the dude from my block that I owe the money to, so I put on my shoes, hit another one, then two. Proceed to jet down stairs to get him out my hair. His fist was in the air headed for my face. Fear of blood I don’t wanna taste. I guess the money’s not the case. Ducked out the way in a hurry then gave him some mcflurries. I know his vision was looking blurry. His eye was looking lumpy and when I’d tripped and hit the ground his crew begins to jump me. I’m still giving him the business ’cause y’all rats ain’t gone just punk me. After the fight was over and the dust was clear I start to walk off, blood still pumping. Not feeling shit, can’t wait to take another hit. Fuck it. I still got the dough, so why let it go? I’m off to the store, but there was something that was said that I couldn’t ignore. He said I was leaking, that’s what he was peeping. There was blood all over my boxers and my pants was soak. Then I’m like damn, I’m too young to croak. The hospital is on the other side of town. I was gonna catch a cab, but then I saw a fire truck, and flag his ass down. Got me there ASAP, no worries, except for the tubes in and out my body and staying there for two weeks. Plus being on a liquid diet that I couldn’t eat. I’d thank God that I lived ’cause getting stab ain’t sweet. That was my nightmare on Elm Street.

Many

How many times you gonna be a fuck up? How many countless days, months, and years your kids gone see you locked up? Andre, you’re so selfish I can’t stand you! The many nights I’d stayed up worried if you was coming home or not. Listening for the ring of the phone or the sound of that knock. You could build a dam from many nights I’d cried myself a river. How many times you said you cared? How many times you said you wouldn’t go nowhere? I can tell you how many times I love to hate you.

Fighting 2 Get in or 2 Get Out the Gates of Hell,

after Luca Signorelli, Damned Cast into Hell, 1503

It’s a royal rumble in the spiritual form, out of body experience way out of the norm. Get in where you fit in, take it how you want it ’cause you’re now in a place where you don’t have God’s grace. The child can be possessed by a demon. If you think none of this is real then you must be dreaming. It’s time to wake up ’cause all those souls are screaming. Some are bound to go up and some are to stay down. It’s an endless war — you can witness the bodies on the ground, motionless without a sound. Survival of the fittest, blow for blow and pound for pound. It can be a crew or every man or woman for their self, but to get out of here you gonna need some help. But if you really wanna stay that’s quite okay, just do Satan a favor and send more his way. God’s angels is up there on deck holding the fort down, so protect your neck. Good deeds or no deeds, God will always love you the same every single day someone is calling his name to save us from this Hell on Earth but humans was first to be called the blame we was cursed!

 

Practice

Practice makes perfect, that’s what they say. So if you don’t even try, what’s the point anyway? Practice what you preach. Don’t believe the hype. When I tell you people who go left, I swear they ain’t right. Practice being the person you was destined to be, ’cause if I was you, I wouldn’t wanna be me. So take it as a positive saying, it’s never negative to practice your state of mind and let it keep playing.

 

Against

I’m going against the odds as of now. For the time being I’m in a tug of war with angels and a bunch of demons. My back’s against the wall waiting on the call. Blind-folded –win, lose, or draw. Everyone’s against you hoping that you fall, but when your life’s in play death can bring it to a pause. When you go against things, that’s hard to defeat. Going against a friend or foe. Keep one close and one at a hundred feet.

 

After Masaccio, Holy Trinity, 1424

If he was supposed to be royalty and they did that to him, what would they do to me?

Would they hang me on a cross, or would they set me free?

Would I even matter to them? Would they pay attention to me, give an open ear up to my story, even listen?

They made him pay and he was one of a kind.

Will I pay ten times more because I’m ten times darker, and my hair isn’t fine?

I can’t heal the blind and would never be able to turn water into wine.

I can’t walk across water. I can’t feed a nation. I can’t spread love in a world full of hatred.

So when they crucify me, have no sympathy. Only one portion of me is gone for I am the Trinity.

Jaquon Cowell [2020 I heart Mo

After John Martin, Sunset Over Rocky Bay, 1830

My soul is hollow like a tree that’s missing a piece of wood. I’m something like a shadow to witness — not good. So when it’s dark and hell is hot my heart is cold to the touch. A ship on dry land. The boat that couldn’t rock. Every day I feel like I’m headed for doom. Am I out of season like I’m coming from fall, going into winter? It’s too soon. In those dark clouds you can hear the thundering sounds, a hint of red mist. Look up at the skyline. I’m darkness at its finest hour. When you think it’s sweet, it’s sour. The temper’s short, but it can grow tall like towers. So who am I? I’d asked myself a million times and I still haven’t found the answer to cure my cancer. She made my heart even colder than before. Imagination running wild but my thoughts are dead serious. Put a knife through my chest because life, I want to finish it. Do you know what it means to wake up in your dreams to see a perfect picture, but it’s not all that it seems? They say aim high and settle for nothing less. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best. Things might move in slow motion, but it’s a work in progress. God said, Let there be light — but I’m dark and loveless.

Dark N Loveless